Put it all away

When that day comes that I cant pick up the phone, or text you back, or have my arms waiting for a hug, or my shoulder ready for you to cry on, I hope you remember me. I hope that there isnt a day that goes by that you don't think of me. I hope everyday you see something that remindes you of me. I hope you don't cry. I hope you never doubt anything I ever said to you. I hope you remember the things we talked about, and the things we did. I hope you pray, and try to talk to me. I don't want you to be upset I'm gone. I don't want you to take your life, thats the last thing I want. I don't want you to hate whatever or whoever killed me. I don't want you to be mad. I want you to move on, and see me in the things around you. I don't know when this day is comming, or what will cause it, I just know that I didn't want it to, but can I fix that? No, and neither can you. I may be dead, but keep me alive in your heart and mind. I'm going to fix the problem I had with you, and I'm going to win. It may kill me, but it will be fixed. Just don't have that gun cocked when I get there, I need to tell you something first. Put the guns away, throw out the bullets, we can handle our problems with words, or I will die trying to. We need to get this figured out, stop with the hurtful looks and the mean facial expressions, grow up and tell me what ever it is you need to. Because with the silence, thats what is killing me... on the inside, which is even worse. If we can't handle this with words, then we can't handle it with anything else. I'll stop by later, just put it all away.